Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Word from the New World

My Dearest Penelope,

I know it's hard for you to understand, my darling. Such is the life of one such as I. The hunt never ends and this time, I am on the trail of a big one. The biggest yet by all accounts. I know you worry so but mark my words this beastie will mount my mantle like the rest, blast it all! Sorry for the profanity, my love. I know how sensitive you are.

I’ve tracked my quarry to the most intriguing of places. Bright lights, fast cars and full of those damned French. In the Americas, no less. Shouldn’t be too long on this sortie. But I’ve had Gunga Din pack supplies for an extended trip just to be safe. Good boy, that. Even for a native.

Anyway, shan’t dally too long with this. Back soon for a strong cuppa and a polish of your headstone.

Yours Forever,

Custer von Glitz

P.S. The biscuits here are god awful.

Proposition

Hey, Luca. I wanna make a deal with you, I figure you can help me out with something important.

See, I'm thinking of branching out on the business side. But, I really hate repeating myself and I don't think I could be bothered to deal with the hassles of running more than one night club at once. So I figured, seeing as you could use a place of your own to conduct war-meetings and whatever other kind of Anarch stuff, you could, well, manage it? I'm buying a new place just down the road and if you want I'll give you total control over it. You can do whatever you want there, make it Anarchs-only even if you really want, keep it vamps only or mortal or a mix, give it whatever name, illegal stuff or drugs or whatever, I don't care.

What I want out of this is 40% profits, you advertise some of my events, and if anyone asks for me you send them up the road to Purgatory. Useful for me, 'cause I can send the riff-raff down to you (some people just don't fit in here, you know?). Like I say, I won't interfere - I don't want to, so if it comes to me having to get involved I'll be pissed off. But I figure you can handle pretty much anything. Oh, and don't interfere with my side of the business either - I'll invite whoever the hell I want to Purgatory. You'd have to deal with Jem too.

So, do we have a deal? There's a bunch of stupid lawyer papers to sign too. Faith can probably figure that stuff out. Speaking of which...

...oh, never mind.

The rain is falling like the Devil's pitchforks from the sky

Montreal. A prime example of the ebb and flow of a seedy underbelly that threatens to spill out and smother a society of flickering virtue. A city of European pretence and Western decadence. The city is a lie… and I hate lies. The truth is like a hot spear and I intend to skewer this nest of deception like a blasphemous pig, squealing out it's dying falsehoods. I came here for answers. There’s someone here that knows me, knows what I need. I can feel it in my gut. And my gut never lies. Call it detective’s intuition. My past, the red star, God, the war in the city; it’s all connected. And once the dots are connected it’ll show a picture of my reckoning. Someone’s going to pay. And they better leave a generous tip.

Friday, October 9, 2009

Marco, Marco, Marco...

Why do you continue to hunt me? Why here? Why now?

What I did was in a previous life, what do these things matter now?

It was only business, in past life no less, why the fuck did you have to make it so goddamn personal?

Just please, leave me be, I harbour no ill intent towards you. Forget about this meaningless quest for revenge, I ask this for both or sakes...

Thursday, October 8, 2009

To a battle well fought!

Comrades,

It seems like only the other night I arrived in this city as a stranger, surrounded by enemies and not knowing who to trust.

Things have changed since then, for on this one night, we fought and bled together for a common cause. We proved that together, we can accomplish the near impossible.

We showed to all, that to fuck with one of us is to fuck with all of us, that although we may be few we will not sit idle while our enemies attack us. Our retribution will be fierce, such that all will know, they might be stronger then us, they might be more then us, but fuck with us and we'll leave you with one hell of a bloody nose.

Jeshaan - You fought valiantly and with honour. My sincerest condolences for your loss. You and your brethren are a true asset for our cause.

Jeremy - I hope your thirst for vengeance is quenched and that you manage to retrieve a little of what you lost. I know that perhaps you still hold it against me for what I did, but know I only did what I thought was best, and I tried my hardest to make it up to you.

Violette - You're one crazy bitch on the battleground! You fought hard and well, and gave it your all, we can ask for nothing more.

Tabitha - You're a brave girl! Without you I feel we would have had a very very difficult time, well done! I hope that you'll come play with us again next time we venture into town.

Long Tom - Once again you have shown your commitment to our cause. I know that you have made some enemies since casting your lot with us, but know that we are here should you ever need anything.

Faith - You sided with us no questions asked, you too showed your commitment. You fought selflessly and with passion, I hope you have a feeling of accomplishment and purpose for what you did.

Oscar - It seems that I may have misjudged you, I'll admit that and apologise. When the shit hit the fan you sided with us, god knows how the battle would have turned out without you and Byron. You proved invaluable, and for that you have my thanks and respect.

Lola - I truly thought that you didn't care about our plight. I was wrong, you too fought bravely with us. Well maybe you won't call yourself an anarch, your actions have led me to believe otherwise. I consider you one of us, and in case you haven't figured this out about me, that means a hell of alot. You have my gratitude.

Finally, Madam Gunimarre - I salute you Madam! Unlike many Camarilla princes who let there archons and minions stride into battle while they sit comfortably on their thrones, you put yourself at risk fought with us on the front lines. You are a true example of a Baroness, you have my undying loyalty.

Well done again to all on a battle well fought. I know there may be repercussions for what we did that night, but I feel what we accomplished was well worth it. We worked together and were victorious against a powerful foe, we would do well to remember this.

Viva la Revolución!

Regards,

Luca

Monday, October 5, 2009

Shadows within Shadows

I hate it when the fog is this thick. Makes it impossible to find anyone. All I see are phantoms, half-imagined shadows. Shadows within shadows.
Malachi! Where are you my friend? I've been trying to find you! I need you, I can't do this by myself...

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Minute

That someone in my head said to me, 'I can tell
Deep in your heart you’ll find what you need'.
Wasted time building castles with sand
And every night I’ll watch them fall and slip through my hands.
And just when I think I’m on top I wonder how I’ll get back down.
When your heart skips a beat, silence be afraid,
I’m loving the heat, honey, I got the rest of time
and I feel oh-so-good like I should, and I know
time is frozen.
What I say and what I mean are two very different things.
I can't help it,
I'm a romantic fool.
It's a habit of mine
To watch the sun go down.
I’ll play from dusk till dawn.
I don’t wanna go to bed now!
Fuel can take a minute to light...
Maybe, baby, maybe, maybe we could go into the sun
Every little maybe makes me feel I’ve won.

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Gift

Tomorrow morning, an hour before sunrise, climb up somewhere high (a skyscraper, a hill, a crane, whatever) and look East. I have a present for you.

xxx
Lola

Jeremy - sorry, I know you're a little crazy but you mean well. I know I should take you more seriously. Let me know if you need a hand. Think you might find this 'ironic' (is that the right word?). Promise I'm not trying to kill you!

Luca - new guy, let's just say that Lola says 'welcome'. You'll get used to it.

Oscar - I know you'll be frowning but deep deep down you're enjoying it - right? Promise I won't tell!

Faith - bet you miss it sometimes. If you squint a bit you can pretend it's the real thing.

Tom - you'll like this for entirely the wrong reason; no, you will love this!

Magpie - something beautiful and scary for you - what's new?

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Welcome to the Jungle!

“Worse then Seattle boss?” Mikey asked skeptically.

“Worse then Seattle” I repeat to myself with a nervous chuckle.

“This place makes Seattle look like a kindergarten!” I exclaimed, followed again by a chuckle.

Mikey remained quiet, either out of shock or simply waiting for me to continue.

“You should have seen it Mikey, they had ten times more guards at my welcoming then at maximum security prison. At first I thought it was a simple show of muscle, but after seeing their reaction when they realised I came alone, I knew better.” I said, my gaze fixed on the lit cigarette in my hand.

Mikey continued to remain quiet. He knows me well. He knows when to talk, and when to listen.

I shake my head, “Once that Nossie came up to me saying how they we’re all fucked I knew these guys were in serious shit, he was proper scared and he didn’t look like no wimp to me.” I say, taking a drag of my smoke.

Mikeys cue to put a word in.

“Yea boss, makes sense. I had feeling Miguel was sending us into a shit storm. I mean, how often does a Cammy Prince join the Anarchs?”

“Yea.” I reply, “We normally have to throw their asses out, fuck me, who would of thought it would be worse them JOINING us!?”

The seriousness of the discussion broke for a minute as laughter erupted.

“They must have made some serious fucking camarilla enemies though boss, and lets not forget the huge Sabbat presence here, it’s no surprise they hitting the mattresses.” Mikey said once the laughter died.

This time I remained quiet.

“You just do what you do best boss, Miguel knew if there’s anyone who can sort this shit out it’s you.”

That last statement proved to me that Mickey truly saw the mountain of a job I had ahead of me. Again, he knows me well, he can see through my bravado, that face I put on for the troops.

“Thanks Mikey, you right, I’m just gonna do what I do best.” I repeated, trying to reassure myself as I put out my smoke.

“Now tell about what Mafia contact you’ve made?”

“Yea boss, turns out a couple of wise guys moved up north during the prohibition to help smuggle the booze down…”

Business continues.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

One Riot

My dearest baroness,

Do not misinterpret my previous correspondence as a sign of wavering support. We have all drawn our fair share of ire for turning against the elder sects, this is true. My concern comes from the sheer magnitude of the aggression that follows you. I am finding your enemies to be both impressive and determined. Yet I suppose this is to be expected from having one of your standing join the movement.

The situation in the city is changing and, as you suggested, so should our approach. I have committed to reinforcing you from our side and I have no intention of reneging on my promises.

Repeatedly, I have been cautioned against mobilizing forces between two warring factions that, frankly, have far more resources and numbers than our own but I have taken a lesson from your book in this. We shall wage an invisible war of diversion and subterfuge. As best as I can I shall continue to rally support for you from the US west coast. Expect your reinforcements soon.

Viva la Revolución!

Miguel Peréz


Friday, May 22, 2009

Broken Telephone

Master, I have what you requested. Yes... comprehensive, a full list. Every piece of real estate he maintained in the city. Warehouses, brothels, hotels. Yes... yes we will begin our search in earnest. Will you be staying on in the city, master? Right, until it is found. We shall spare no resource. Points of interest? Perhaps one curiosity. A place he owned only very briefly…

In the absence of Hope and Charity

She sharpens the knife on the oiled whetstone, humming a tune she heard years ago. What did they call that boy that taught her the tune? Flipper, Catcher, she can’t remember. She just remembers seeing his body on the stretcher, legs blown away from under him. 
She pulls the blade with long full turns, the steel and stone rasping in unison. Then there was Simon, she remembers his name. Different war, but then she was different too. So much older but still looking as young. Perhaps, if it wasn’t for her infatuation, she could have loved Simon. An uninduced love. Pure and of her choosing. But it was not to be. The sergeant with the green eyes and shaggy hair was crushed under the wheels of mobile infantry.
She inspects the blade. Her finger tip weeps crimson as she applies the slightest pressure. So many faces, many without names, gone. Lost in time and memory. Long ago, she once heard her father sprout the old expression; the point of war is not to die for your cause but to make some other poor bastard die for theirs.
She slides the knife into its scabbard and fastens the clasp holding the weapon in place. It’s so draining. To care. To love. And even more so to want it in return. War is so much simpler. Especially when some bitch fucks with someone you love.

On a tin roof

Down trodden. Victimized. Scapegoat and martyr. That is I. But even martyrs have their followers. Even they have their causes. And I have mine. I have purpose. But those that have wronged me, those that did this to me, suffered me to such humiliations, they are ones I can not fight. Yet as when God cast out Lucifer by the hand of Michael, I shall walk the Devil’s path. For as the Devil cannot hurt God, he can most assuredly punish the ones that He loves.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Signing a Life Away

The rhythmic snap of his leather shoes on the marble floor rings out across the courtyard as he strides towards a heavy oaken door, flanked by a pair of large figures. The two men at the door look identical. Same straight cut black suits, same dark glasses, same conspicuous ear piece jutting out from the sides of their heads.

He doesn’t break stride, marching towards them. He wears an expression as if intent on storming through them yet, seemingly at the last moment, the two guards step aside from the door allowing him entry. He bursts in.

Surveying the study in front of him he is greeted by the soft crackle of a gramophone gently wailing Wagner. A lone candle illuminates the room casting flickering shadows to all corners.

The room, in and of itself, is sparse. A single mahogany desk with a high backed padded chair positioned in front of it being about all the furniture within. A similar chair tilts behind the desk occupied by a heavy set individual, his eyes severe behind small framed spectacles with a jaw wide at the jowl. The man behind the desk simply extends a hand to the opposing chair. An invitation and instruction all in one simple gesture.

The man entering the room clears the distance between the door and the chair in the blink of an eye. Deftly pushing the chair to one side, he remains standing as he produces a long brass cylinder from under his coat. Snapping off an end he unfurls a worn parchment and placing his hand squarely in the middle of the page slaps it down on the table top.

            “Sign it,” his voice is almost a growl.

The man sitting retracts his extended hand. A small smile etched on his broad face. He turns to the gramophone on the far end of the desk and tilts his head.

            “It may surprise you to hear but I never had the pleasure of listening to Wagner in person. Not that I didn’t have the opportunity, mind you, it’s just at the time I was so preoccupied with other matters. One forgets how fleeting mortal lives can be.”

The man standing places both of his hands on the desktop and slowly lowers his face to meet the man’s opposite him. He annunciates each of his words deliberately.

            “I am not here to play games. Sign it.”

The smile fades away from the man sitting yet once again he gestures to the chair.

            “Sit down,” he says and as an afterthought he tacks on, “please.”

The man standing looks at the chair and with disdain pulls the seat in behind him and sits. The man behind the desk allows the smile to return as he regards the parchment in front of him.

“It is no small thing you ask of me, my friend,” says the spectacled man from behind his desk. “There is significant resistance to this decision and, frankly, I’m not sure it is worth the political fallout.”

            “Politics be damned,” snaps the man opposite him. “This is the opportunity we have been waiting for. The law is clear, the traditions affirmed.”

            “And then what? You return to the Americas? Dare you face another embarrassment?” The man behind the desk clasps his hands together. “I could not do that to you.”

            “This time it shall be different. This time I go not with bureaucrats and lawyers. No more tribunals and political maneuvers. This time I come with archons and alastors. The very thing that protected her before has now been recklessly cast aside. And now is my time to strike.” He pushes the parchment further across the desk his voice trembling with rage. “Sign it.”

“You are taking this far too personally, my friend,” replies the spectacled man. “Above and beyond being absolutely right, I fear for what rash decisions will come from you in such a state. Your mission is pure but your motives are fueled by pride. Let it go. There is more than enough rope to hang this harlot. There is no need to be snared in such entanglements. Let her destroy herself and live on in the satisfaction of having tried to steer her right.”

His words seem to penetrate as the man opposite him considers their merit. He stares at the brass tubing housing the warrant. Eventually, he looks up.

            “I have lived for many years and am by many centauries your senior. I know that does little to change our current, respective ranks but remember this; it is by my grace that you sit in that chair. Either you sign this document or your expedited successor shall.”

The smile shifts into a scowl.

“Be that as it may, on this night, in this room, I am still your superior. In nights where friends are few you overstep your mark with me. Yes, even you have parameters. Never the less, I shall sign off on this personal vendetta of yours, however, with one caveat. I am redeploying our Frankish Hospitalier to your side. I have seen to it that his precious heirloom has been returned to him and, hopefully, he shall act as your voice of conscience.”

            “He has his uses. I see no harm in having him with me. Agreed.” As if punctuating the point he gives the parchment one last nudge.

The man sitting behind the desk produces a beautifully crafted Montblanc fountain pen, the gold inlay glinting in the candlelight as he scratches his name across the bottom of the page.

            “Mark my words,” he adds, finishing his signature with a flourish, “you will come to regret returning to that city. When the flames of revolt rise they shall consume all in their path.”

“I will not be denied on this. She will be brought low as well as all those that follow her. For I bring with me a most pointed reckoning. And you would be most, most astonished as to those who share my sentiment.”

Sunday, April 12, 2009

Consideration

Little Lola ain't scared to die,
She's scared to live alone.
Because, you see, what fun is it
To rule beside an empty throne?

Monday, February 23, 2009

Please don't leave

Johnny, what have you done?

Tears rolled down his face as he clutched the bloody corpse against his body.

I'm not a monster, I'm not a monster, I'm not a monster, repeated over and over again - it was Johnny's mantra, intoned like Dorothy clipping her blood red shoes waiting to wake up from a dream. The witch was dead.

Mary, as she liked to be called, walked over to Johnny, pulled the corpse out of his arms and shook him with all her might.

Johnny, what have you done!

The corpse lay on the ground beside him, eye sockets and mouth vacantly opened up to the sky. Johnny looked up into his sisters eyes. She couldn't save him. Not this time. But he desperately wanted her too.

It was an accident. I didn't mean to do it. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm not a monster, Mary, please believe me, I'm not a monster.

You cut out her fucking eyes, Johnny, and her tongue! Why the fuck would you do that?

She was staring at me. She kept calling me a monster, kept saying I was a bad boy, that I was going to go to hell. I had to make it stop, I had to! I'm not a monster! Please help me, Mary, please! What am I going to do? They're going to kill me.

No, Johnny, I'm not saving you this time. This time you're own your own. I found a job in America, I'm going to cross the border tomorrow. I was going to take you with me, Johnny, but look at what you've done! They'll never let you cross now! They'd throw me in jail too!

Please, sis, I'm begging you, please!

Johnny cried in his sister's arms, tears mingling with the blood stains.

Please, sis, please don't go away. Please don't leave.

Maria pushed him away from her, leaving him in a heap sobbing on the floor. She went to her room, changed her clothes, packed her bags and left without saying another word to Johnny. He never heard from her again.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Remember

Dear Prince,

I would like to formally request for a memorial to be held in honor of Oscar Vardez. I did not know him or his works well, but I know that he had an undying passion to create a better world for the kindred, and he was loyal to the Camarilla and to you. I feel it's important that we honor the memory of our casualties of war - those that have faced final death so that we might live.

He was an honorable man and he was always helpful to the cause, even though it has led to his final death. He will be missed. He should be remembered.

My condolences go out to Lola, Faith and all those of the Tremere clan who knew him as family.

Sincerely,
John Riviera

Additions

Something doesn't sit right. Something is bothering me. Its not the monotonous crackling of the static on the television screens in front of me. It's also not the rattling of Violetta's nightly routine, cleaning her guns with pesticide. Nor is it the stuttered exclamations uttered my an excited Malachi as he pages through mountains of notes.

No, it is something from some nights past.

Why did the Nosferatu deliver Greymalkin? Didn't Father Carlito say they had him? I negotiated a deal with the Sabbat, not the Nosferatu! So why the hell did the Nosferatu deliver him? And how did they know where my Haven was? There is something sinister brewing underground. I'm starting to see that Greymalkin might not have been working unilaterally. The poor creature might only have been an unknowing pawn.

The Nosferatu are up to something. And the Sabbat are involved. There is something devious brewing underground.

A Letter To My Prince

My dear prince,

I write this letter to you because I feel I owe you at least this much. Take it as a confirmation of my loyalty to you, an apology for actions not yet taken or even a confession of guilt. Any one will fit. But know that I write this with no deceit and nothing but love and loyalty in my heart. You are not just my prince, but a dear friend and the only family I've ever known. I would lay down a thousand of my lives to keep you and the others safe, and never feel even the slightest regret.

I feel little loyalty to the Camarilla itself. Sure, I understand the need for it, the need for its rules and its traditions. They are perfectly rational, and upholding them should be a priority. Yet I also know that this is not all that the Camarilla are about. There are aspects to it that I (or dare I even say we) do not really agree with. Our Malkavian 'weakness' grants us the special ability to see through the smoke that clouds everyone else's eyes. This is why we are so mistrusted in this organisation... because we can see the truths they try to keep from us. We can see the lies in their doctrine. And I know it is not just I who sees this. How can we not see it? Our Tabitha is the very embodiment of this truth!

EVERYTHING WILL COME TO AN END.

Is this not the perfect paradox? Finally we've achieved what every mortal wishes for, only to have it sucked from us one fateful night. I have no doubt that if they could, every clan in the Camarilla would wipe us out completely. It is only because they fear the violence of our retribution should they fail that they do not try. We are more hated and mistrusted than even the Nosferatu.

That being said, please do not assume that I feel any sympathy for the Sabbat. I despise them with every part of my being. I abhor their callous violence and their disregard for their own humanity. I remember that you once taught me about the struggle between the beast and the man inside of us. I'd go as far as saying it is a struggle between life and death. There still burns some life in our corpses, and it is this life that gives us our conscience, our morality. The death in us strives to cause only more death.

To be honest, in light of the auguries around us all the sect squabbles seem quite pathetic. Like children fighting on a playground.

So, to come to the point of this letter. I wish for you to know that any actions I might take in the future, no matter how they look, are taken for the good of our clan. Everything I do I do for you, my dear prince. If I keep any secrets from you it will be because I feel that these secrets will put the bearer of them in great jeopardy. If I take any actions that seem disagreeable I will be because I feel that they will grant us more time together.

In short, you and the others are all I have in this world. You are the sole reason for my existence. You have shown me mercy and clemency when you had no reason to. You have shown trust in me when everyone else would not. And now I ask you one last time. Please trust me. Trust that whatever I do will be for our greater good.

Your servant in eternal love and loyalty,
Jeremy

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Done

I trusted both of you.

I was loyal to both of you.

I loved both of you.

I let both of you mark me.

And now I have to carry the scars, inside and out.

Both of you are- were selfish.

Possessive.

Arrogant.

And neither of you could even say those three fucking stupid little words. Such brave, strong, confident men. So sensitive, so caring. My fucking heroes? More like petulant five-year-olds sulking over their poor miserable lives. You've left me with nothing. How thoughtful. What a great way to prove you loved me.

Just pathetic.

I am so fucking glad to be rid of you two!

Now, stop crying about it, silly girl.

Stalemate

“She left. She just… left.”

“What were you expecting? For her to make a choice? You really don’t know her at all.”

“I had hoped. One way or another just to know. This is, however, for the best.”

“My God, I hate you.”

“The feeling is quite mutual.”

“Everything I had done, all I had risked, it had all been for her.”

“I can say the very same thing. Even now, I totally, truly love her. Except I hid behind the memory of a dead child fearing that love.”

“Don’t even try and trump me at being pathetic. She said she loved me, when she didn’t. I never said I loved her, when I did.” 

“Huh!”

“I was waiting for this all to be over, for my debt to be paid and we could be free. I was ready to say the words out loud to her.”

“So, we are agreed.”

“I never pictured it ending like this but it is suitably poetic to me. Yes, we are.”

“If I were to survive this, the Sabbat would kill her.”

“If I were to survive this, the Camarilla would kill her.”

“Hold me tightly. The flame will burn brightly between us for only a few moments.”

“If you'd like I can assume a different form? There’s a little something I’ve only very recently mastered that may take some of the pain. Call it a parting consideration.”

“No, I think it is only fitting that the last thing I see is you. To remind me of my undying stupidity.”    

“Fitting.”

“I knew it was you, by the way. That time you came to the Elysium.”

“Indeed. How did you know?”

“Faith is a far better kisser.”

“Go to hell.”

“See you there.”

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Project

This place is just filthy. Filth attracts scum. It's no wonder this place is running into the ground.

In either case, it looks like Jeremy's fucked off with his mad posse. Is it my fault the staff naturally look to me for guidance? Not that I know their names (seriously, they're cattle!), but barman-dude and bouncer-guy have been asking what's going on and far be it for me to let the poor humans try to figure stuff out on their own. Hey, even if Jeremy's away for one night, it's long enough for me to condition these brainless mortals to do what I want.

Now, surely crazy-boy won't mind if I do a little redecorating? I'm thinking velvet couches, private booths, silverware, chandeliers, candlesticks, silk drapes, elevated iron walkways... a stage, for god's sake! Some proper music, some decent entertainment... and a special private room in the back for our kind. Now, that's hospitality. Let those insane fuckers do what they like in the backroom with all those TVs and shit (memo: soundproof it!). The rest of us cultured folk can be magnificent out here, in the proper surroundings... And of course, this place needs some standards. Not just any slob can wander in. Only beautiful, delectable patrons please! After all, a girl needs to feed.

Now, who to invite for the reopening? The Toreadors, of course, because they'll actually appreciate it. guess I have to invite the lame-ass rest of the Camarilla, though I'm betting 90% of them won't come. Oscar won't, but maybe Eliza? She's not quite as much of a prude. And hey, those snake guys are welcome too, they're decent.

And of course my magpie must see it. I'll tell him to surprise me.

Ooh, what fun!

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Post Script

“Everything is packed and prepared.”

“Good. I’ve organized a list of instructions should things go poorly.”

“You don’t have to do this.”

“I’m tired of sitting and skulking away. It’s time.”

“Let me come with you. You don’t need to do this on your own.”

“I do. This is my mess. I don’t need to involve you.”

“But I am involved. You sent for my help, asked for my guidance. Why won’t you take it now?”

“This needs to be done. This needs to end. And I need finish this alone. I have sat back for far too long watching in quiet desperation hoping beyond all hope that things would change. They have not, they will not and now I must act.” 

“You say you’re doing this alone and yet you’re bringing them. Why?”

“They need to see this. I owe it to them.”

“You owe them nothing. They have shown you nothing but scorn and ill contempt. I have tried to see the value, the worth you speak of, and see nothing. Vapid, barren and loveless. That is all.”

“Regardless, I’ve made up my mind. I go and they are coming with me.”

“I still marvel at the change that has come over her. So… different.”

“It is a powerful influence.”

“I know. I can see it on you. You’re breaking all your rules for this. The rules you maintained as key to your survival.”

“Survival? I have been living a half-life for many nights now. One way or another. I am ending this.”

“You’ve changed my friend. I warned you of caring too much and now it could cost you everything.” 

“At this point, everything is a small price to pay.”

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Training

Dear Faith,

You've become lazy and stupid and you're gonna get yourself killed. I've been watching you for nights and you haven't even seen me (except for that one time...) and I don't even have the supernatural talent that the rest of my brothers and sisters have!

There's been a lot of changes happening underground, but with Uncle Tom in charge now I'll get some time to come round and make sure you don't trip and fall on a stake.

That gives me an idea... maybe we should practice with stakes next time, make things a little more real... not that you've ever been much of a challenge in close combat, but you're learning at least.

Think you can put your precious little games aside for a night, or has Lola really put her faith in a blood bag? At least Mr. Oscar had some muscle - you only seem good at blowing up your own allies with C4. Then again, maybe Lola finds physical training to be so boring, and you really wouldn't want to disappoint her now, what, with you being her love slave and all.

It'll take me a few nights to collect the blood I need, but I'll pounce on you when I'm ready, so you'd better be prepared!

Respectfully,
John Riviera

Monday, January 19, 2009

Games

Magpie, are you collecting shiny toys?

And when will you put me back on the shelf, bored with my games, spoilt for choice?

Magpie, I love you I love you I love you I'm obsessed with you I can't think of a single other thing, awake or asleep. It hurts, it burns to be away from you, but when I'm with you all I can think is that soon, soon, it will be over and I'll have to leave you and be alone again. At least now I have your mark on me, so I can carry you with me always. Every time you draw it again it sinks in deeper below my skin, into my blood and my mind as I sob with pain.

But I'm just a silly girl. I can see that you're infatuated now, but I'm so so scared it will wear off. You've been this way so much longer than me. I hate it when you're away and I don't know what you're doing, who you're seeing. I want you to myself. I'll kill anyone who touches you. I'll do anything to make sure you're mine. I promise, no more games.

I'm yours.

Please love me, too? Forever?

Dreams

Dreams of black skulls in empty shadows.

Empty eye sockets like the openings of gaping storm drains leading to an abandoned subway station.

Shadows within shadows.

Black upon Black.

A little on the side...

The coke is barley visible on my pale fingertips. I put my finger under my nose and take a whiff. Cocaine. Nothing more, nothing less. I rub some on my gums, tracing the roots of my fangs. It does nothing for me.

"Iz good, yes?" Yuri grins his cheshire smile. His good eye twinkling in the low lit bar.

"Its good." I say. I wouldn't really know.

"Vhy you not have Vodka? Iz good Vodka, from homeland."

"I don't drink Yuri. At least not that." I roll my eyes. "You know that. You ask me every fucking time I'm here. And I always tell you the same thing."

"I don't understand you fucking Americans. You don't drink, don't eat meat, only eat... what the fuck you call that govno... organic." He spits that last word with disdain. "But... you fucking junky. Vhy?"

"How do you know I'm a junky?"

"Look at you, skin like piss on snow! Alvays tvitshy. Only see me at night!" He leans closer and points one of his thick fingers towards the bar. Violetta is standing there, scratching her arms and scalp, occasionally stomping her feet at imaginary vermin. "And look at girlfriend. Tripping off tits! Of course you fucking junky!"

"Heh, maybe you're right." Indifference in my voice, followed by an uncomfortable silence.

Yuri leans backwards and calls over one of his girls. "Natasha! Vodka!" She rushes over, stilettos tapping frantically on the concrete floor. I see her flinch as Yuri slaps her ass. He laughs. "S'ebis!"

"So Yuri... we have a deal or not? You supply me with Heroin. And, If you like, I could supply you with some of the meth I'm planning to make."

He pauses for a moment. "I have to see. Talk vith suppliers and comrades. I let you know. How you planning to move the... product?"

"I've got plans. Don't worry about that." I grin.

"Very vell. I talk to others and tell you vhat vill happen. But enough business now. Time for drink." He bares his psychopathic teeth in a rough approximation of a smile. An index finger swings over his shoulder towards Natasha. "You vant to fuck her?"

"Hmm, maybe I will... and then I'll get myself a drink."

"Hahaha, good boy!"

Friday, January 16, 2009

Promise

Magpie,

I want to make you angry. And I want to give you a present. Make a mess, and make some art out of it for me.

I always feel better after I get angry.

xxx

L.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Betrayed

Fucker betrayed me! I can't believe he managed it so easily! All the preparation and cautionary measures! Fuck, no! This isn't happening. I can't be caught by the Sabbat! Greymalkin, you'll burn for this, you traitorous Sabbat piece of shit! I will hunt you down. You'll be a pile of ashes before the night is over.

And if my prince dies you'll all be in a world of pain! I'll kill all of you Ventrue fuckers. First I'll kill your ghouls, then I'll hunt your neonates. Finally I'll hunt you until either I or Gehenna ends your miserable existence!

Listen, all of you little shits who thought they could just toy with my fate, you don't know just to what lengths I'm prepared to go. Jeremy is just crazy, Jeremy is to scared to do anything, Jeremy is just a frightened little pussy. You'll see what happens if you back me into a corner! I'll shoot a hole through your fucking eyeball and spit in it!

The circumstances... they're in my favour. Don't ever forget that!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

White Queen to Black Rook

She runs her hand through his hair. “Oh, my boy, you suffer so.” Her tone is a delicate balance of concern and mockery. 
“Leave. I’m not in the mood,” he sneers snapping his head to the side and away from her.
“Such petulance, child,” she smiles as she kneels down to face him on the floor. Suddenly her hand snakes out and grasps a handful of his dark hair, pulling him closer. “You have been spending too much time with her.”
“I’m not playing this game anymore. She means too much to me now. Find another way.”
“You’ll do what you’re told as any good child should.”
“No. It ends now.”
The smell of smoke and burning canvas still fills the air. She releases his hair and stands, looming over him, the folds of her long white dress surrounding him like a ring of fire.
“I favour you, boy, but that does not mean you’re beyond reproach.”
A wry chuckle escapes his throat. “Do what you will. I fear neither death nor pain.”
“Silly child,” she lilts her head to the side smiling and showing fangs. “I don’t need to punish you. You do such a fine job of that on your own. I just need to take away what matters.”
Instantly he is on his feet with a hand to her throat. “Hurt her in any way and I will cut a bloody swath through this city to you. I will throw the ashes of each and every one of my brothers and sisters at your feet. And then…”
“And then what, child? Kill me?” She removes his hand effortlessly. “You know you can’t.”
“No. Then I douse myself in gasoline and have one last cigarette.” He smiles sardonically. “I don’t need to kill you. I just need to take away what matters.”
For some time the two remain frozen in static regard. She eventually speaks again with a voice that could carve granite. “You are such a fool. All this for a girl you can not even muster those pathetic words for. Not even speak the simplest lie to.”
“Damn you. You stay away from us.”
Her eyes widen with sudden realization. “Oh. Oh, but it wouldn’t be a lie, would it? I know the face of your fear, little boy. You can’t say the words because they are true. You forget I know you better than any other soul in the world. And you destroy the things you love. It feeds the misery you wallow in. It’s what makes you…” she mouths the words deliberately, “an artist.”   
“This is different. I have a chance. As small as it is. I have a real chance at happiness.” He takes a step back and turns. She follows stepping forward placing both hands on his shoulders and resting her chin by his neck. In a whisper she speaks softly into his ear. “Then you are a double fool for believing that. Even if you were to find this happiness, even against all chance you find joy it will repulse her. She is drawn to you because you are broken. Mend and she will leave. Then you will have nothing.” 
She kisses his neck then turns and leaves gathering up her white dress. “Play the game, child,” She calls out as she steps into the elevator. “It’s all you really have.”
He balls his hands into fists as he stares at the floor. He listens as the machinery lowers her away. 
“Damn you,” he whispers.

Freedom

Hey Rachel,

I know you said it's dangerous for me to keep coming here, so I was thinking - your group like to solve things by fighting it out, hey? Well, I probably can't fight as well as Harry, but I'm not too bad in a fight either. At least I should be able to earn enough respect to be able to wander around a bit - you know, visit my old place and you when I want to without having to worry about killing others in order to do that, especially since you guys seem kinda cool, I'd hate to have to fight you guys for such a stupid reason. I mean, it's not like I do any hunting out there or anything. I got enough food at home. Do you think you could help me meet Harry and earn his respect? I know I look like a monster, but I'm more than that too. I can be good.

Meet me by the screen. We can talk there.

Sincerely,
John Riviera

P.S. Last night I visited the Zoo and changed into a polar bear. It was so sad, being trapped there like that. I knew how he felt, being trapped in something he doesn't like. I think we should help them - it's not right for them to be trapped that way all the time. I know the game keepers will find them again, but maybe we can give them a few days of real freedom. What do you say? Will you help me?

Pain

He asked if I had made my decision, and I said no. Clearly, I was lying. He took too long, and he trusted too little, even when I tried and tried to be on his side. But I won't tell him that. I'll hold his hand and I'll say, softly, maybe we could still turn this around. He'll look down at me, and say, oh Lola, but really he'll be thinking, Rebecca, maybe I can have you back, after all. Strange, come to think of it, how we'll both be cheating each other.

I know now what I want. Not the stability, gentleness, concern of Oscar, but the terrifying obsession and pain and wrenching yearning of my magpie. There, I can feel something.

And now he's marked me with pain. I am his. I told him to make it hurt, and he didn't disappoint. He was meticulous, and it took a long time. The intensity of his concentration was frightening, but he knew he couldn't get this wrong; he only had one try. When I finally saw it - so magnificent I didn't feel worthy of it - I felt cleansed, ecstatic, my mind clear.

Oh magpie...

I love the pain you put me through.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

The Black Sun

The hardest part is having to hide. We have to hide from everything. We hide from the Sabbat, we hide from each other, we hide from the mortals, but most importantly we hide from the sun. It is a strange thing living in an endless night. Before sunrise we close our eyes and turn to corpses. No dreams, no nightmares, just death.

And death is a very strange thing... not like most people think. I've heard it being described as an endless void, a boundless black expanse of space. I guess that's an easy mistake to make... to think of it as something that is nothing. But really it is nothing. Its a fine distinction. No agoraphobic panic attacks in the darkness because there isn't any darkness to speak of. Nor anyone to feel the panic. Do you see what I mean? No... no you don't. I see that you're confused. Never mind then.

Back to what I was talking about originally. No sun. All I want to do is feel its warm rays on my face again. The funny thing is that I've never realised just how much relies on sunlight! I want to hear birds chirping again. I want to smell freshly baked bread. I want to be able to see colours for what they really are, not tainted by the tint of artificial light.

I want to walk out into the sun!